Wandering aimlessly

I wonder at times if we will ever have a child to call our own. It is frustrating when there is absolutely nothing you can do to control a situation. I like to be in control, or at least feel as if I am in control.

Our coordinator is on vacation this week so it is not likely I will hear anything regarding the domestic adoption possibility I came across yesterday. I am cautiously excited about that little baby, because I think it would work out very nicely! I am keeping my fingers crossed that this may be our little one, but I am trying not to get my hopes up - but it is hard not to. What is meant to be will be....

In the meantime I am waiting for a response as to how to fill out one last piece of paper for our dossier for Kazakhstan. Once I have this info I can submit the remaining documents to be apostilled. What is an apostille? - in the simplest terms, it is the great state of NJ's stamp of approval regarding the legitimacy of the notary who notarized the document. Its not expensive, just nerve wracking to get done. It shouldn't be nerve wracking, but you see the state has managed to lose our dossier not once, but twice!! Fortunately they found it both times - took 2 weeks the first time and 3 days the second. As an FYI, I have submitted documents for apostillng on 4 different occassions - can you sense why I am a bit nervous about doing it again!!! I am looking at a 50/50 chance of them not losing the most valuable set of documents I have ever worked on!